Au début

Can I be honest here? No, I mean really, can I? I know, I know, you're thinking "But Erika! Of course you can be honest! It's YOUR blog! Post what you like! Forget whatever wire-tappers and internet trolls think!" No, that's not what I mean. I know I can be honest. Hell I have a TALENT for it. I can be brutally honest if you piss me off enough. I mean...can I be open?

I have no idea what the fuck I am doing here. Blogging? Seriously? I haven't done this seriously in ages! And why not use Facebook? Because fuck Facebook notes. This shit is cooler not to mention, I feel like Facebook is too clogged with political articles (guilty there, I admit), game invites (once again...), VagueBooking (try not to do that too much...unless I want to talk about it), food porn (never do that), Selfies (yep...bad about that one), and general bitching and ranting. Don't get me wrong, I love Facebook for all its shortcomings and flaws. I have so many wonderful people in my life, and it's easy to keep in touch on FB, instead of scrolling through for email addresses, and attaching pictures (sigh...them's was the days!). I guess I feel like I can be more expressive here, and invite people to come in, rather than force feed it in your newsfeed. I feel like this allows me more of an outlet.

So, back to honesty...yeah, what the fuck is this? Hell if I know. Oh, yeah, profanity too. I'm good with that one. Don't like it? Fuck off. Seriously. I don't have time for that shit.

I've been debating doing this for a bit now. I used to enjoy a duality of writing by hand, and writing online. Maybe I just don't have the environment I used to. Writing in my journal is a chore, and I'm barely home long enough to let myself soak into that mode. Goddamn, never though I would miss high school and all of its liberties.

To move on to some actual content, instead of me blathering on like a moron, why am I here? Because, I have too much craziness rolling around in this head of mine and some of it needs to come out eventually. Sure, some of it will get written down. There are things that make me too vulnerable to just spill EVERYTHING on a webpage. But there are things I want to voice. Things I want to communicate to people, and maybe they'll roll my ramblings around in their heads and say "Hey Erika, here's what I think!" and actually talk to me. No, I don't mean the infamous internet bitching we all find ourselves in at one time or another (WAY guilty of that one). I mean...discussion. Picking minds. Introspection. REAL INTERACTION (yes, even possible via computer...communication is communication people. Deal with it). Because sometimes, it's easier to type up words on a computer screen, rather than talk, or write, or keep it bottled up (which I suck at the last one anyway).

So can I be honest? I hope someone somewhere reads this shit, and doesn't think I'm a total fucktard moron. I hope someone reads this and just says to me eventually. "Erika...I get it. You said everything I feel." I know it won't be that ways 100% of the time, but I'm ok with it happening once every so often. I just need an avenue in which I can be as expressive as I goddamn well please, and maybe someone else can appreciate it.